Ana Rodriguez Bisbicus and Rahel Stange
6 degrees outside, it feels like 3 degrees.
the sun rises at 7.20 am.
the sun sets at 4.20 pm.
today we have 9 hours of sun.
the later we start the day the less sun we will see.
the relation between light and temperature,
inside and outside,
afraid of cold, of darkness.
I am nervous already. In 5 minutes it will start. Just a seminar. Just a group of people.
The digital world makes me feel unsecure, how does the background which will be seen by the group looks like?
I start to arrange the camera, I arrange my room. How does I look like?
I sit down, try to enter the digital world. It doesn’t work,— I try again. Part of me doesn’t want the internet to be working.
A weird feeling of being outside in the cold while being by myself, while being in my room, while entering university.
What does physicality means in digital space?
It works, I enter the call. Even I want to hear what the people are talking about I can not concentrate. I don’t connect to the space.
I look into the screen. Observing the little image of me and about 20 other images next to mine, all in equal squares. Everybody seems to take the same space.
I can watch myself constantly, like dancing in front of a mirror, but without the liteness of movement.
Who controls the space? I can regulate the volume of all your voices, I can switch on, switch off, disappear.
I feel between seen on fullscreen and invisible.
I get cold, my feet get cold. my body barely moved the last hour, the sun is already about to set and my room gets dark, while the screen gets brighter.
I want to be outside, in the world, I am looking for warmth, for connection.
